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When I first knew I was gay I felt uncertain of how people would react and felt like I would be rejected. I decided I couldn’t keep it hidden because it felt like I wasn’t being honest to myself and it was tearing me up inside so I chose to tell each of my friends one by one in person to see how they would react and when they told me it didn’t change the fact we were friends. I felt more confident about telling others and soon I had told all my friends and only a few were not happy about it but I figured if they couldn’t accept me for who I am then they don’t deserve me in their life.
Now the only ones who didn’t know were my family. When it came to telling my family I couldn’t do it face to face I felt I would have disappointed them and that they would not want me in their life but I knew I couldn’t keep it hidden forever it only makes it worse for me so I thought up a plan to come out by saying I was in a relationship with a guy over Facebook and when I did this I was at college and my gran was the one to pick me up and take me home and she asked me if I was gay and I said yes and she didn’t speak to me again. And just drove me home and wouldn’t speak to me for a month when I got home the only words my mum said to me was ‘Why did you come out?’ these words plus what my gran did left me devastated. I thought if my friends could accept me then my family would but I felt betrayed by my family and felt like running away but I had nowhere to go. In the end I just stayed out the way from them although I had to see them daily. I just avoided talking about it. Eventually they started to get used to the idea and stopped making me feel unwanted it just took a few months for them to accept it fully.